Positives to Go On…

Transitions can be difficult, but truthfully, I’m excessively happy about my new adventure in California. The biggest challenge for me is to try to not control it for a certain outcome. I should pause and say that no, I haven’t decided to move here. I’m here to work on a project, and while I’m doing that, I’m going to test the waters as well.

I know the grass is not greener on the other side of the fence—it’s just different grass. So maybe I’ll want my old grass back, but right now I’m not coming to any conclusions 🙂

It has been nice to connect with a lot of old and new friends in this process.

Here are my two favorite texts from friends yesterday (even though I loved them all!):

“Talk tomorrow. We are not sad…nobody is leaving earth just town :-)”

“Get some rest and have a good flight in the morning. Don’t be worried, it’s a great experience if you go in with a positive tude… Text me when you hit the beach :-)”

The technical update for the day:

Flights on time, luggage arrived, cousin met me at the airport.

We went to lunch, then she went to work and I have been trying to come down off my 6-day adrenaline rush by re-watching several episodes of the Kardashians and looking out the window a lot. I contemplated going for a walk, but I just feel a little beat up right now and needed it to be ok not to do anything at all.

Qualitative update: I feel like a popped balloon (in the best way possible). I’m exhausted, and it reminds me of the last time I returned to NY from Cali (after drinking a lot of wine and not sleeping a lot), when Joe said to me, “Don’t take this the wrong way, but yesterday when you got home your eyes were all sunken into your head.”

Can a person be sunken and puffy at the same time? Because that’s how I feel…again, in the best way possible. I actually feel like I’m exactly where I should be right now. And that’s as far as I can go for now.

Things I’m going to work on:  drinking less coffee, drinking more green juice (and oh darn I’ll just have to buy it…).

Once I can take out my stitches on Friday, I’ll be able to work out again, and I’m looking forward to that a lot. I have several potential get togethers planned with people I know who either live out here or are visiting. I’m excited about that—I like my cousin’s friends a lot, but one thing I want to make sure I don’t do is just inadvertently step into her life (even though we’re sharing a bed for two months!).

Here are just a few pics from the last day or so…

I went to dinner with Mom and Fred last night. It was great food and amazing company. We should have had dinner together more often before that.
This may not look super impressive, but it was amazing--we shared it. Lemon Basil Creme Brulee at the Upstairs Bistro.
A good sign: My first meal in Santa Monica was a Classic Cobb Salad....and it was chopped, exactly how I would've made it. I'm eagerly anticipating being in a place where the food is actually good.
This is the view from Kristen's apartment (where I'm staying). It's not bad. ha.


Last, I'll tack this on and call it a theme for my trip. When I was packing my belongings, I found a copy of my dissertation. I flipped to the inside and read the dedication. It still applies.

How is your week so far? Any big or little things going on?

Do you feel guilty when you relax? Sometimes I don’t—right now I think my issue might just be the contrast between going 100mph and all of a sudden stopping. I reflected a little more on what the heck I’m doing in my life with this adventure here too.

7 thoughts on “Positives to Go On…”

  1. cathy@1970kikiproject

    so great to read your update , lisa. glad you arrived safe and sound.
    you promote a few valuable life lessons, here. i esp like “The biggest challenge for me is to try to not control it for a certain outcome” – yes!
    and yes i do find it hard to relax. one lesson i have learned this summer is that it is ok to just sit and read…so yes, do take time to relax!!
    love that photo of you and your mom!

  2. Heather (Where's the Beach)

    Yep – you can totally be sunken AND puffy! I loved that picture of you and your mom. You guys look very much alike. And yes, sometimes I feel terribly guilty for relaxing and I know that’s completely silly. We all deserve to relax and enjoy.

  3. Aww I love the picture at the end of your dissertation dedication. so beautiful…and YES, still quite quite fitting. Good luck girlfriend! xoxo

  4. I am so excited for you! It looks beautiful at your cousins apartment. I love reading this, and knowing you arrived safe and sound. You are so amazing and I know you will figure out what is best either way. I love the saying :”The grass isn’t greener, it’s just different grass.” Best of luck with it all! It really takes guts!

    I don’t really feel guilty when I relax anymore. I used to. I used to never be able to relax. Now, maybe it’s mommyhood, but I may relax a little too much, when I can, instead of getting work done 😉

    Looking forward to hearing more! xxoo

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