Transitions can be difficult, but truthfully, I’m excessively happy about my new adventure in California. The biggest challenge for me is to try to not control it for a certain outcome. I should pause and say that no, I haven’t decided to move here. I’m here to work on a project, and while I’m doing that, I’m going to test the waters as well.
I know the grass is not greener on the other side of the fence—it’s just different grass. So maybe I’ll want my old grass back, but right now I’m not coming to any conclusions
It has been nice to connect with a lot of old and new friends in this process.
Here are my two favorite texts from friends yesterday (even though I loved them all!):
“Talk tomorrow. We are not sad…nobody is leaving earth just town ”
“Get some rest and have a good flight in the morning. Don’t be worried, it’s a great experience if you go in with a positive tude… Text me when you hit the beach ”
The technical update for the day:
Flights on time, luggage arrived, cousin met me at the airport.
We went to lunch, then she went to work and I have been trying to come down off my 6-day adrenaline rush by re-watching several episodes of the Kardashians and looking out the window a lot. I contemplated going for a walk, but I just feel a little beat up right now and needed it to be ok not to do anything at all.
Qualitative update: I feel like a popped balloon (in the best way possible). I’m exhausted, and it reminds me of the last time I returned to NY from Cali (after drinking a lot of wine and not sleeping a lot), when Joe said to me, “Don’t take this the wrong way, but yesterday when you got home your eyes were all sunken into your head.”
Can a person be sunken and puffy at the same time? Because that’s how I feel…again, in the best way possible. I actually feel like I’m exactly where I should be right now. And that’s as far as I can go for now.
Things I’m going to work on: drinking less coffee, drinking more green juice (and oh darn I’ll just have to buy it…).
Once I can take out my stitches on Friday, I’ll be able to work out again, and I’m looking forward to that a lot. I have several potential get togethers planned with people I know who either live out here or are visiting. I’m excited about that—I like my cousin’s friends a lot, but one thing I want to make sure I don’t do is just inadvertently step into her life (even though we’re sharing a bed for two months!).
Here are just a few pics from the last day or so…
How is your week so far? Any big or little things going on?
Do you feel guilty when you relax? Sometimes I don’t—right now I think my issue might just be the contrast between going 100mph and all of a sudden stopping. I reflected a little more on what the heck I’m doing in my life with this adventure here too.