Obviously, I’ve taken a break from writing here, and although I didn’t intend to, there was just no way for me to fit it in over the past couple weeks (not true, I could have crammed it in, but my head wasn’t in it). I did the Jersey Shore thing with my friends and Matthew, and then I went to Cali for a long weekend…and then last weekend I went to Massachusetts to reunite with my college roommates. The great thing about teaching online and having a flexible schedule with clients is that I can travel and still work…
Currently, I have two posts in the works–the second post about detoxing (this one is kind of an in-between post), and one about fat. In the meantime, please go read my friend Laury’s post about going grain free and contemplating the topic of fat intake.
In general, I’m detoxing a lot of things in my life. I’m sure you won’t mind that I don’t go into all the nitty gritty details, but here’s the overview…
I’m cleaning, purging stuff, and packing…so I can go to California for 6 weeks (2 months?) on August 21st (I have a one-way ticket, but I fully intend to come back for Matthew’s birthday at the end of October). I’m pretty excited about this—I have a project to work on while I’m there, and I’ll be staying with my cousin. In the process, I’ll be exploring whether or not I want to move there and “make a living.” Obviously, Cali has a higher cost of living than where I live now (want to quadruple your rent, anyone?). So I’m staying open-minded and just want to see where it goes. If you know me, you know that I’m kind of an overachiever—and I just need a new challenge. Besides, who doesn’t want to live where the sun always shines and the ocean is close by? (I know, some people don’t want that….I swear I will not miss the seasons if I go there, I’ve wanted to live in Cali since I was 12).
Going through every single thing I own does a few things…. It makes a HUGE mess! My apartment looks like a bomb went off. It helps me keep in perspective what is important—stuff is not. However, the stuff I have that’s already old has some nostalgic value, especially things that have to do with my sister. I can’t possibly get rid of my hundreds of Babysitter’s Club books. But, if I didn’t have the cabbage patch kids or the old records and lunchboxes, I honestly would not miss them. So I’m trying to determine to what level I want to detox stuff from my life.
I’ll be honest, this process occasionally puts me on the verge of tears—the VHS tape I found of my sister playing volleyball in 1993, the answering machine I will never throw away because my sister’s voice is on it telling me she’ll call me back after dinner, things that are from an era of my family that I can’t ever get back. But then it reminds me that it’s ok too—being sad, moving forward, and using challenges as opportunities.
I swear I want to do that. So I’m creating this Cali challenge for myself to see just how far I can go with both internal and external motivation.
The detox/cleansing aspect of this post is really about tying up loose ends from the past and letting go of barriers before moving forward. I have certain things I need to do, and certain things I need to say to some people. Then I feel like I have clearance to make progress again. I stalled it—almost 9 years ago, when Matthew was born. I quit my “career” as a civilian employee for the Air Force and moved home to help out (and honestly I would not change any of what has happened since then). It’s not that I’ve done nothing for myself during this time (after all, I got a PhD and have spent plenty of money on premium denim and weekend trips), but my life decisions have considered other people—mainly Matthew, my Mom, and whatever relationships I’ve been in.
Truthfully, I’m excited, and it’s kind of strange to not have limits.
I’ll be better about posting—I am leaving in less than three weeks, and all I have to do between now and then is wrap up details and teach online (no more trips!).
Here are a few recent pics…I’ll see you soon with more detox info (the real part 2!).
I hope your summer is as positively eventful as mine has been!
What have you been up to?
Any big changes in your life?
Tonight I’m meeting the other Lisa B at the Summer Wine and Food Pairing class at the NY Wine and Culinary Center…I bet we’ll learn lots of great things, and if we don’t, at least there’s wine and food involved! Happy #WineFriday 🙂